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Today was a good day. The kid is away at camp and it’s just me and the wife. I got up and did my morning routine and then worked a little.
My wife got up and we went out to lunch, then to the movies, and the mall, and then out to eat dinner. Somewhere in there I got a little more work done and she went with me.
So today was a good day. I can’t remember when was the last time her and I spent the day together without anyone else.
For the challenge, now it’s late and I’m trying to get all the the things done. I did stick with the diet going out and did a workout with her walking around the mall. It was weak, but I got it done and talked her into it.
But food was hard for me today. I’ve been hungry all day. And I just want to eat something outside the diet. I want break and cakes and candy! It sucks. So I’m trucking through. My wife got a dessert at Hole Foods and I got some cheese. I know it’s not the greatest thing but it does fit with the diet. But I’m still hungry and want some ice cream! Yes, today I feel like a true fat guy.
I am pushing through and only have a couple hours to go until bed then my craving for crappy food will be tomorrow’s problem and hopefully will go down some.
It happens on and off to me. I get days that I’m just hungry all the time and can’t stop thinking about food I shouldn’t be eating. I figured out the first time through the challenge that I am truly addicted to food and sugar. I think it’s the hardest addiction. Because I could just quit smoking and change my environment to suit, but I can’t just stop eating all together. And if you think there is a lot of triggers for smoking and other habits, you should look at it through a food addict’s eyes. There are things you shouldn’t eat everywhere, all day every day. Even at home right now while I type this the kid left a cereal box on the table. I like cereal, but will be partaking in none of it!
So my struggle with food continues…
75 Hard I will Conquer,
Ben Branam