Day 61 of 75 Hard

Still going! 14 days and a wake up until I’m finished. My wife is getting tired of it I can tell.

Last night she went to work and stayed out late knowing I still needed a second workout. I ended up going for a walk at 10pm so I could get it done. She just said, why didn’t you take the kid with you… when I normally just wait for her to get home. It was aggravating. Just goes to show it is way easier to get your goals accomplished when the people around you are committed to you goals. My wife is wavering because she just has other goals right now. This isn’t really important to her. And that’s hard for me.

Today is just being hard. I don’t want to do anything. Maybe it is the fact that I worked 70 hours last week, was out of town 4 of 7 days, and doing this challenge or I’m just tired from not getting enough sleep for the last couple days. I don’t know but I know today I don’t want to do anything.

I’m going to take it easy and watch TV, maybe mow the yards, but probably not, and just chill today. I have no energy and feel like I have nothing to give. I hate that feeling and don’t know how to get through it. Guess I’ll have to work.

Days like today feel like the depression monster that has been after me for the last couple years is getting closer and ready to overtake me. I’ll keep doing the program and survive. Tomorrow will be better, I’m just going to get through today.

75 Hard I will Conquer,

Ben Branam